Hello again

Well it seems like it has been ages since I've blogged on here.... I feel soo unfaithful. :( Guess I've just been writing in notebooks and that has felt easier, and more comfortable perhaps.

Anywho, this is just a quick catch up... yes, I am still alive! This summer, my Senior Summer turned into the best days of my life!! I have grown so close to so many people, but especially my Senior class! I love them all sooo dearly! We had sleepovers, tahoe trips, went to SF, made Pazookies, and just were all together! This summer has shown me what it's like to have a group of friends again. Thank you Lord for that!

But it has been a struggle over these past months. I started school in San Diego, PLNU, and my who world has dramatically changed. As I pulled away from my house, and everything I'd ever known I realized this was all really happening- I was leaving. Days filled with crying have turned into months. I've never felt so alone, even tho I am surrounded by so many people. Everything has been stripped away from me, my car, cell phone(horrible reception), my family, my friends, my familiarity, community, routines, church, and everything else that I have ever held dear. Hardest days of my life.... And on top of all that I've been struggling to keep my relationship strong with Christ. That's been the worst, as it is a personal failure.
Over these past months my folks and I have been looking at options and praying about what we should do with my future, as we've discovered on so many levels that this isn't the right place for me. It hasn't been all bad, I don't want you to think that, but it sure has been more of a struggle than any of us had ever imagined. Tho I've really grown closer to my parents and friends thru this. And I've grown in myself here and made some memories as well. It's been such a breaking time, to the extent where I have nothing of myself anymore.... I'm ready for Him to rebuild me!
Back to future plans. We decided the best thing would be for me to come home after the Semester (45 more days and only 24 more nights of sleeping in my dorm room) and finish my GE at West Valley. After that I'm looking to finish my Comm major at Sonoma, Monterey or San Jose State. I feel so at peace with this decision, the first bit of peace I've felt for so long.
I haven't told many people of this yet, some of my close friends, but not those who I know will oppose the plan. But this is for me, making a stand. It's what I need to do. I'm just praying for courage to be able to accept whatever people say to me as they find out about this. I know it will be hard, Lord, I ask that you give me the strength to endure all the comments and jokes which will be made as a result of coming home. Let them say what they will, for I've never been more excited about moving back into the nest! It's amazing how some things can change, though it's not something you can see until you really step back and look at what was, and what now is. Thank you Lord for change!
Haha. You know me! Just can't say a few words, I have to write an entire paper! But that's who I am! Have a wonderful day, and be encouraged.